❝ infect me with your love and fill me with your poison ❞

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[catelynstark]

He will be a strong one. [And despite everything, there is pride in her voice. She will never see him or hold him in her arms, but he will grow up strong. The thought is almost too much to bear, but the Starks will survive without her.]

I have had a good life. [She lets go of him, letting her hand fall back to her side.] But I do not know why the gods have brought me here.

[pimping]

They know I still hold you in my heart.

[It's a conceit. To think that the Stranger might have mercy on him when Ned Stark would not.]

[catelynstark]

We did not part in good terms.

[Cat acknowledges this, but neither does she think the gods are so arbitrary in their favors that they would grant a childhood friend and his love one last meeting.]

But you grieve for me.

[pimping]

I've loved you since I was a boy.

[And always will.]

[catelynstark]

Petyr. [Exasperation and warning and affection in one word.] Let me go. You have no choice now.

[pimping]

Do you really find my presence so repellent? That you would rush into the Stranger's arms rather than remain in my company for a few more moments?

[catelynstark]

That's not what I meant. [She reaches out to take his hand, squeezing it lightly.] I've never wanted anything but happiness for you, but you're making it difficult for yourself.

[pimping]

Happiness slipped from my fingers as easily as the sword.

[She's cold to the touch, no longer of this realm.]

I lacked the strength to keep it within reach, within my grasp.

[catelynstark]

[She shakes her head.] You mustn't dwell on what happened years and years ago. Find it in your heart to love another.

[pimping]

You'd do me a service by keeping it with you instead. I no longer have need of it.

[catelynstark]

You ask for too much. I cannot bear that burden.

[pimping]

My heart was always yours to keep. The best part of me was always meant for you.

[catelynstark]

Petyr, I never asked for your heart. I can't return your affections.

[pimping]

Then don't. Just take them and give nothing in return. As you always have.

[now he's just being petulant]

[catelynstark]

That's uncalled for. [She says it quietly, with a hint of hurt.] You were one of my best friends.

[pimping]

A brother, yes. Would that you could have had the inclinations of a Targaryen in that respect.

[What would a slap from a dead woman feel like?]

[catelynstark]

[No slap comes, but anger blazes in her eyes as she looks at him.]

The years have turned you bitter and cruel. You wouldn't have dared showed me such brazen disrespect when we were children in Riverrun.

[pimping]

When I saw fit to worship the ground you walked on so much so that I filled my belly with mud for your amusement? Yes, those times are long gone.

[catelynstark]

That was no grand gesture of love. It was a game, a silly game we played with my sister during simpler times.

i keep reading your username as catelynsnark 8|

[pimping]

When we were all far more simple-minded. But no longer. The Others take you. The Stranger seeks you out.

[His eyes don't echo his lips as he chokes down a sob. So this is how it ends.]

accurate tbh

[catelynstark]

You do not mean that. [She bites her lip, a habit she has abandoned when she left Riverrun for Winterfell.] Say your goodbye with no resentment in your heart.

pretty much

[pimping]

Even in the end, it is your demands that take precedence over mine. Is that how it must always be?

[catelynstark]

No, this is the last time you'll ever have to inconvenience yourself for me.

[pimping]

And as is expected, I should yield. But I do not rule my heart, Cat. You do.

[catelynstark]

Then let me go and be at peace with the decision.